How can you be the one
that got away when I 
never had you?
When I was just the one
looking at you, like the world
revolved around you,
like you were more beautiful
than anything I had ever seen; 
like nothing else was there – 
Making everything else disappear
when you sang.

When I was just the one
who hoped you never knew
how I felt – hoped I wasn’t
as obvious as everyone said
I was being. Yet you knew – 
and you never said anything
because you didn’t feel the same – 
Because you could have anyone 
You ever wanted — anyone. 

When I wasn’t the only one
who thought you could
walk on water. When you
were who everyone looked at –
Who everyone wanted. You
gave everyone attention, and none
all at the same time.
You knew everyone wanted you.

Yet you remain just you.
And I remain just me. 
You surface in my thoughts
And I wonder why, why you?
Do you ever think of me
or is it this pathetic and sad
one sided conversation
into the void, to the one
I never had…yet…I feel I lost.

T. Marina